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I belonged to the nerd,naamam(a typical iyengar's mark on the forehead) marked,oily haired,dhoti wearing brahmin boy category for quite a long time.I never did any of those mischieves, in other words,adventures that the adolescent school boys try to do to exhibit their masculinity.

My first experience of the arrow of the cupid happened when i entered into 11th standard,that was when i first had a co-education clssroom.Boy!! everyday i enter into the classroom,my adrenaline used to pump up.I had this experience for quite sometime.But i had this agni pariksha on my self control for two years.Imagine your class filled with lots of butterfly like girls sitting just in your hands reach but the class teacher happens to be your DAD.I used to be very jealous of my friends when they talk about every girl's dress,whom does she smile at etc., during the lessons whereas i used to sit straight like a lagaan'ed horse looking straight to my dad ,in otherwords, my english teacher all the time.

One fine breezy morning,a girl walks into the classroom thinking that she is walking into the class room like any other girl.She had no clues that she just walked into my life and would walk away with the honour of 'My first Crush'.My whole world started revloving around that girl.I felt her aura everywhere i go and my 125 year old school building became the most beautiful spot in the whole ever expanding universe.How i wish i could write down her name here!!

A single word with her used to make me hungerless,sleepless for days together.To add to this agonisingly sweet pain,i happened to watch 'maine pyar kiya' and went completely mad on this girl.Anybody who gives me some info about her, became my confidant.Because of all these,my academics were hitting all time low like the sensex index nosedive when the left parties wanted to take part in the central government.I scored a 40 in the chemistry,which in my parents point of view was worse than a fail.(Later in the college days,40s became my norm, is a pathetic story).Nobody had any idea about the different chemistry going on inside me.

I had a good friend(in indian terms,chaddi dosth) in my classroom,who was my partner in many ways.We were doubles partner in the table tennis team and opening partners in the cricket team.I should say,we were one hell of a team together.I had no idea he would become my partner in the case of this girl too.Thats the ugly smile of destiny on me.He also got crush on this girl too.

This guy was a toughie compared to me.He used to cut his fingers and write "i love you" with the blood so easily ,whereas i was scared to cut even the beetroots for its color.I was hoping that some miracle would occur and this girl would ignore my buddy and give me a green signal.But my first crush ended up in a bitter note when i heard she accepted my friend's proposal.Thats when my heart crashed like the WTC.The only art i could do properly was the heart symbol with her name in it.My sorrows knew no bounds when that drawing too became a caricature.

People,at this point ,i would like to advise you all on my experience.If you are looking for a similar wavelength pal,then let it better be a person of opposite sex.

Of course,my sorrows lasted for a month or two and no sooner i was ready for another episode.This time,it was our family friend's daughter.Even now,when i think about beautiful girls,first one to come to my mind is this girl.Oh!!if Dravid defines his shots,this girl defined beauty in her every movement.She had this rare gifted combination of beauty and brains and to crown those ,she was so down to earth.

I was so foolish that i used to call her Akka(elder sister) inspite her being just a year elder to me.Some day i got this Gyan and went directly to her and told her "listen ,i dont call anybody as akka who are close to my heart.So i will not call you akka anymore .Do you have any problem in that??".While telling this,my whole body was so hot like a furnace.She was so startled with this and said with a blushing,"no,not at all.In fact i was never comfortable when you call me akka".We had spent hours talking.I never had the courage of telling her how i felt about her.When i say she looked very good in some dress,the next day she comes in front of me wearing that dress.
I know ,i know it sounds very silly.But guys,please let me pour out my thoughts here.

I was so upset when there was talk going on that she may become a part of my family in such a relation that i will no more be able to think of her, the way i used to.Fortunately or unfortunately it did not work out and so was my second crush.She was married to someone else and went out of the village.All this happened in front of my helpless eyes.

But i think if i meet these girls again now,i would not take off my spectacles and turn back and cry with my whole body shaking.One reason is ,i dont wear spectacles.hihi.Next is,these are all sweet memories to cherish than to feel sad about anything.

So,folks ..dont go away.Next is the interesting part of college life where my transformation from a nerd into ........ hihihi,a more lousy guy.If you liked this first part,i will write the second one.Or else i will spare you all with this itself.Stay tuned.